If u r not prepared to lose it, then u r not ready to play

7 am. still awake. y. dunno maybe if i keep staying awake my mind will juz lock itself out.

If u r not prepared to lose it, then u r not ready to play

seems like this is my philosophy in life. It pisses me off (to a certain extent) when i just seem to be in the wrong all becuz i'm gambling in this manner in life.

I was prepared to lose my future when i chose to game all day long during my sec school days, i didn't.

I was prepared to lose my chances to enter local uni when i chose not study for exams during my study break in poly but played games instead, and i didn't.

I was prepared to lose my honors in uni when i chose to spend more time with my friends instead of focusing fully on my studies, and i didn't (hopefully, i have a rather safe buffer i hope.)

I'm not boasting, n i give thanks to Him once again...

I have nv regretted my decisions, even tho on hindsight i could have done better (but who doesn't say that anyway?) But then when i made the choice, i will make it stick. I made the choice to the best of my ability, and that is all that i need to noe ( And no i do not nid to copy u simply becuz i made the choice) There will always be consequences in ur choices, so i dun c what major crime i'm committing here. I'm willing to gamble, even tho the odds looks really bad at times, and i'm all ready to lose. If any part of me is not ready to lose, then i wouldn't commit in the first place. True u can't make all the right choices, but thats life, u have to take responsibility for the choices u make. Whining doesn't help. Staying focused does.

That being said it is very hard for me to fit into the norm. 'Normal' nv cuts it for me. I find it very boring. You have only 1 life, u put everything on the line. Either u make the cut, or u dun. You dun regret, can't go back. Provided u r ready to lose wad u put on the line in the first place. Otherwise u will end up regretting and start finding excuses and start pushing the blame around. And that, in my opinion, is worse than not trying in itself. If u wanna play, u better be ready to lose. Case closed.

[ If u can afford to lose everything in life, then wadeva thats left is just a bonus. Enjoy it while it last =) ]