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i dunno wad title i should give this lol. I'm oso not sure wad im gonna type but ohh well...

Hmm ok its still holidays ... yay. yup at least im trying to act like im really happy about it lol. Ok la players r back, been going out quite often n stuff and oso had the privilege of serving for my church musical. Life looks good lol ...

ZZzzz but i think it looks too good, it doesn't seem real anymore. I feel like im juz living life day to day. Its becoming kinda sad really. Lol im bored, tired alr.

Sian of everything. Lost in an endless cycle. Can't b bothered to get out. Too lazy to do anything. Too preoccupied to think about it. Just wanna let life pass me by ... one day gone means 1 less day to think about, lol.

So now what? Easier said then done. I have succeeded in confusing my own brain so badly, that i have no idea how to un-confuse it at all. Basically, i set up my own trap and owned myself too badly. gg.

Ohh well. Just live each day. What else can i do. zzzzz.

Its Christmas time! Time to write cards again. This year feels especially hard. really really hard, my mind is blank, i dun wanna do it anymore, dam sian lah. Its like its all gone zzz. hmmm ...

[I need Your Presence, I need Your Touch]

I know i can't do it

I know i can't do it, yet i still persist. The show must go on, and i must look like i can go on, the act must not stop. Zzz y m i liddat, haiz ...

I must stop thinking so much really, its already holiday, and everything in life will adjust itself automatically. yup.