Monday, March 30, 2009

Yet another weekend...

Yup another weekend... feeling lazy to blog about my weekends alr lol. Like everytime want to blog suddenly like very eventful, haha so many things i wanna blog about. Holy ghost meeting, studying, LAN, supper , movie , cell, spdlite (first man-pack! haha :P ) , and more studying lol.

Im too lazy, nobody reads this blog anyway... which is still a good thing hehe. Yup i dunnoe y nowadays like life feels so fun, if thats the word, even tho im a uni student n im supposed to be really stressed. Even tho my exams are a month to its end. Even tho im like trying every minute to squeeze my time to study, like totally no life at all. Yet im still feeling like life rox, like dunnoe y i suddenly enjoy living, studying, going out, family time, going to church, everything i do seems to be so meaningful lol.... hehe i cant seem to explain it :) Maybe i have finally begin to understand wad it means to be joyful always, maybe i finally begin to believe that You r above all. (NOT THE AIR FORCE ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ)
juz to make that clear haha.

Yup so im not gonna waste the space here. No real need to write it down. Ok time to sleep.. early sleep is good !!

[The joy of the Lord is my strength]

Haha maybe u sing that in kindergarden lol

Monday, March 23, 2009

=)

haha thx to all who celebrated my birthday on sunday!! haha. yup yup u all make my day! yea wad else can i say but add more :):):):):):):)

ok im bored. Ya i noe i shld be studying. Ok la did my assignment tired liao. Then go fb and chk blog feel awake again lol. now gonna type this and slp!

Actually i run out of things to type already. But since im not slpy i shall add some random filler!!!

Ya since im 3 weeks to my exam i shall share a random flashback in my sec school days! haha....

Ok it all happened one fine day when my maths teacher sent me to the office for defiance (yes u r reading rite, thats me) for not telling him where i was last afternoon after 'grilling' me for like 10 min ( i was outside the classroom with him and the whole class was inside waiting) , nope he must be dreaming, y shld i tell him, y shld i lose my honor (im the true "knight" class after all, only 2 people noe wad im talking about). Nope no way, u can send me to the office, afterall havent really been there much during my stay in sch. Yup so off i go to the office escorted by the head prefect, lol, she asked me y, guessed wad i said (think u can guess).
"Nothing lar." lol some things nv change hahaha.....
Moving on i went to the office. In my mind i was still thinking its nothing serious lar, what can happen at most write form lor. Yup that wasn't the point they actually made me go for some counselling, seriously how im not compelled to say wad.
Haha the counsellor started with some random story about getting lost somewhere, then u cross mountain cross river (not the exact words but the idea is there), finally u reach a marshland then u c a house, what do u do?? (filler: apparently the school noes that im underperforming horribly, their 3rd student in the batch [in terms of PSLE marks] getting red marks all over his papers isn't something that u wont notice i guess, plus with all the complaints from my mom)

Ok back to the story, like im not dumb i noe wad he is wants to say lah. Basically he tell me, u will run there rite?? Yup he told me that u r there now, looking at the house ( i was sec 4 think a few months to O or smthin) , so u shld try and run... haha i think to myself.....

"What a weak story, think i dumb izzit, this kind of thing i dunnoe, tell me for what? If i want to study no nid u to tell me. But its precisely becuz i dun wanna study, becuz i choose not to, i tell myself dun want, so ur story = invalid. nope its not working at all bye."

Juz stoned there and "ah". So he continue on and started to talk about the future, something i do not want to hear about. Start telling me how if u cannot pass ur O's come out cannot do anything. Then go on and tell me that if u at least can get into poly or ite at least graduate go out work earn 1800 to 2000 den its not so bad. He went further and said that even if get a diploma u go out work ur pay increase very little. He said for example if diploma get 3 yrs headstart from degree the degree grad come out within a short time will catch up and his pay will increase even faster. Then he asked me if u understand the value of education now. I think to myself.....

"Ya la, Ya la, evrytime hear this kind of thing zzzzz. sian liao. What diploma wad degree, i dun care lar, zzz everything also money, eventually also have to work, dam stupid. For what so dumb. Anyway gone liao lah, already spoil everything liao, i destroyed everything, wad to do. I hate studying, i dun want to study, it is so stupid and a total waste of time. Whateva happens just have to live with it lor. Come to this stage...bo bian. Haaa what degree?? think far away sia. lol must be dreaming. Me?? degree??!!! after all the nonsense in school.. still dare to think of that ar? SIAO!! too late liao!!!! Maybe last time will think of such things, but now, cannot liao....."
I basically switched off my brain after that and cant rmb anything after that............

The rest they say, is history. Fast forward another 6++ years, im 3 weeks from my exam lol. What else can i say but its only through Him that is possible :)

Remember, what u want u will nv get. what u do not want u may get. what u sincerely hope not to get will get thrown at ur face. lol. Ya i want nothing. hehe :P

Once again, blessed day and week daniel :)

[ Thank you all =) ]

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Blessed birthday daniel =)

Haha yea im 23!!!!
OK wad r u so happy about??? u do noe u growing older rite... zzzzzz
ya la

Lets c wad i did 4 my birthday... i took mc for my quiz!! c , im learning bad bad things... lol :P

ok la i spent the first few hrs studying 4 my maths quiz which i noe im not going, until 5+ am den go and slp.. woke up at 11+ go and take mc lol. Ended up nv come out wad i was afraid will come out. which means i wasted my mc..could have went 4 it. Zzz uni i crazy lah nv felt so scared taking a quiz when i studied like 70%. Nvm its ok. Got this feeling it wont come out lah.

Anyway after taking mc went to jp for lunch. By the time i went back to sch its like 4.15 liao, met my proj mates for some discussion 4 presentation tmr. Left sch at 7, reached home at 8+ eat dinner at 9, cut cake 9.45. Rest till 10. Fb and type this thing until 11. And that is about all lol.

Its time to start studying 4 my quiz tmr. So looking forward to making my first "kill". I want first blood!

Nuff boring stuff. Yea its my birthday today. Thanks to all who sms-ed me or send me msg from aussie!! Thanks for making my day :) Haha dunnoe y i feel so happy and blessed even tho i got nothing to be happy about. LOL!

[ hehe 23.... ]

Monday, March 16, 2009

hows ur sunday man daniel

LOL. some1 asked me this qn on msn!! i shall turn it into a blog post! haha!! fun.

ok i only answered "yea my sunday was good :)" now i shall turn this qn into a normal blog post!

Yup i woke up at 9 am and decided to go 4 leaders meet. Yup but i turned up at the wrong place. Asked a few people where is it. they not going oso. So went 4 cell instead :) Yup cell, nv been so early in a long while. ok lor nice... the sharing is getting more interesting ya. Went 4 lunch after that with cell. Ate at some place i nv been b4, ate alot lol. Then went back to church to serve 3 pm haha.
Did cam 1 for 3pm! ya ok lar. Was waiting 4 eugene to go to mac and then meet him there. But in the end i ended up staying for prac. wanted to leave at 5.30 at least can study abit. But in the end got addicted to man-pack cam 1 lol. Stayed until 6.20 haha. Went to mac to attempt to study. Talked abit, opened my notes, then more people turned up and want to go eat dinner liao. Had mos burger with them. Went to arcade to watch them play some new game. lol. Went back. Watched shrek 2. On my com, about to start typing my report. Flan called me, left my house, watched dragonball. Learnt the coolest phrase of the day "normal is overrated". haha. Finished the movie. Slacked at the playgrd and talked to flan. Went to his hse area and slack somemore. He went back. Missed the last 17 bus. Took 291 instead. Walked home from tamp int. Typed blog post when i reached home. Typed this post when my friend asked me this qn. going to slp :)

And that is my sunday!! haha maybe im not refreshed in the sense of the Word, as in those revelation kinda thing. But i definitely feel "reset" and ready to face another week with Him!! haha :)

[And that is all i noe :) ]

Ok i be honest

Ok since no1 reads this blog is shall attempt to treat it like a 'diary' and be honest lol.
ya... suddenly got this dark gloomy feel......

Ok fine. i hate this stage of my life now....
It hit me today that i hate this stage of life.... this is the phase of life i nv want to go thru. Ever since i was 13 i was afraid i will reach this point of my life. I wanna run away, i dun wanna work. I dun want to lose my friends, i dun wanna live life like a robot. i used to tell myself . Life is dumb, growing up is stupid, i hope i wont reach this stage of my life. i hope............. i oso knew it will nv happen, that one day reality will hit me, just one day.. and i think it just did.. haiz being a young adult sux, seriously, i nv liked it. has its little perks, but i do not want those.....

Ohh well, reality always wins. yup i like to adapt tho, take this as a challenge and try to enjoy the process, that sounds kinda fun. haha.

Yup, im running out of words, dunnoe how to put it down. i shall talk random nonsense now. I think i finally did it. but i think im too late. ohh well life makes fun of u. thats the fun thing about it. If u can take the joke of cuz :P Haha im seriously confused now. I dun even noe wad i really wanna do in life. I sometimes don't c the point. haiz

All i noe is wad i like. I oso noe of His goodness. I noe i like engineering since young. I noe i cant do anything else. I noe i like going church. I noe i like serving in tech. I noe i like meeting my friends. I noe that my friends are precious. I noe that life is too short to waste it. I noe we are all loved by Him. I noe that His love covers everything. I noe that im very blessed in life. I noe that one should not want in life but stay focused. I noe that life is about giving. I noe that He is more than enuff 4 me, there is nothing more i want in life than Him...

Many other things i do not noe, and i choose not to noe........

Ohh grant me to strength to walk this road u laid down for me. Ohh give me the wisdom on how i should do it. Ohh give me Your spirit that i might do it the way u want me to.

Im feeling tired again. N i have to study..... ya lor. Getting more tired and confused juz thinking about it. ohh well. back to mugging mode!

Have a nice day :):):):):):)

[Normal is overrated. lol]

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Hahaha lol

had a fun day today!!!
haha havent had one in awhile.... maybe i keep thinking that i have been studying lol.
Yup today is spdlite minds ca fe day. Ya lor went for dinner and some random walking ard after changi airport after that lol. Fun! ya la machiam like on holiday sia so slack no nid think about school :)

Ok i got to start on my project report to write for the following week. Maths quiz on wednesday nv really study. Thursday got another quiz and an oral presentation which havent prepare. Got like '10000' lectures havent watch yet. E-learning week nxt week means i will lag even more. 4 weeks to exams after this. Havent start on exam paper. Havent finish basic revision. Aint i dead??

Yup my life rox!!! hahaha serious.. becuz i say so! and i chose it to be so... wadeva lah

But............ its SUNDAY!!!! :):):):) yea. ohh ya maybe im not going for camp after all.. ohh well.
goodbye.

[ maybe i had enuff, maybe im juz tired, maybe i dun really care after all. lol]

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I have decided....

to sign up for spdlite/reachlite camp.
lol.
lol.
lol.
Life. is. one. big. joke.
LOL!

told u i will eventually sign up..... juz nid to rmb to bring my form!! hahaha

[ ...................................................................... yup lol. ]

Monday, March 9, 2009

Its a monday!!!

Hehe lol.... change style not gonna talk about sundays....... lol
haha ya la going sch later :) I got this "im back from holiday feel", too slack this weekend lol, like holiday haha. Managed to finish my assignment lol, with the help of google of cuz :)
After "not studying" for 2 days, i actually find myself liking my assignments. hmm how do i put it, i like engineering, i hate the workload now..... but i still like wad im doing.. hehe
Ok 5 more weeks... gogogo!!!

[ =) ]

Saturday, March 7, 2009

The 2nd most powerful force on earth.

Hello.
Ya la 5 am liao still not slping... zzz mom scolding me everyday for slping so "early" . Sian, keep bugging me. Its like i go back to my sec 3 days. dam sad :( Its like throughout these 8 years (Zzzzz i must use my fingers to count how many years lah, really getting old lol) i nv grew up at all, same nagging style saying the same old things. ahh :(

Anyway i went 4 reachlite today!!! hehe, i left early in my proj discussion lah, hope my teammates dun hate me too much. Actually nv really thought of going 1, but den was asked to help with lyrics, so go loh :) Ya i reach there and get a shock, becuz im supposed to do lyrics/mac/sound/lighting. Basically me = entire tech for reachlite. Lol somemore no1 was there to guide me. i thought there will be some1 at least, but when i reach there is only me doing for the first time (using that system) and no1 to teach me, only a sms to tell me to alt-tab. Scary... have to try to figure out haha. The first song i dun have the lyrics, kan cheong cannot add properly lol. go and close the lyrics prog.. quite dumb... Anyway, i learnt more on the lyrics program today, realised a few new settings haha :) And i dunnoe where the lighting switches r haha... and nv do sound for about 4 years lah, only noe how to adjust volume. Then got to do a few "stunts" somemore. I feel so nub without my precious "freeze" button haha. But thank God it all turn out well! yea...
Sermon was on denying self, something i feel that im losing thoughout the years :(

Went for supper/dinner opp church after that, shared rojak with flan. Then go and watch Ma-Lee and Me.

And i finally reach my title, all the filler is over. haha getting long-winded, paiseh. Ya the movie was quite good. But i felt that the central theme in that show is wad i think is the 2nd most powerful force on earth, conviction. If u say love is the most powerful force lah. And it must come with conviction, it is wad drives us. Without it, we won't feel the need to do anything. Only when someone is truly convicted of something will he willingly do it with all his heart. Nagging is not needed. It is where change begins..... yup..

getting slpy, this is bad... slp is impt.

[ I want to live for You ]

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Man, Mo ment, Machine

The Man - Daniel Chan Binyang
The Moment - appoximately 6 weeks b4 exams. The last chance to save himself.
The Machine - hmm NTU??? hmm he has no machine. His brain is the only tool that can save him now :P

Ya im bored. Hi im bored. I want to watch my history channel. Bye.

[lol]

Monday, March 2, 2009

STUDY!!!!

study, study, study. lv, lv, lv. Its time to power AB 150%, study until even ur toenails cry out nono. Never to retreat, never to surrender, u shall cut down ever book and leave no page unturn...

[Told u, im going crazy]

P.S : I really hope to study real real hard.

Enough...

Enough!! ya enough wasting time wandering around u shld be slping and getting ready for school. What??? zzzz u mugger, crazy no-life study freak, wannabe prof. Ok i ran out of "nasty names" to call myself... lol its not so bad really.... im still a slacker.........

Recess week passed!! Ya i studied more compared to the last sem's, nv really played alot lol. And for that im glad!! (going crazy). But was sick on the 2nd half la, so nv really studied all the way zzzzzz.

I just thought of this very strange saying that my parents used to tell me...

"If u study as hard as u play games, u will ace wadeva u study!"

LOL!!! i used to think its true, until now. When i tried it.... i realised, nope my parents were wrong. Haha.

Help me. I'm getting disillusioned. My lack of gaming has caused to me to think that studying is the only game im playing now. Hahaha i shall "game" more!!! "Gaming" is the best!!!
Ok enuff weird stuff...... time for more happy things, and what other happy things do i noe other then....






u guessed it lah, church/sunday lor. wad else :) hehehehe
Yea sunday!!! nothing much really. Cell seems bigger. And i power serve today!!! lol if there's such a term. Ya i did cam for spdlite, after pnw went to do lyrics for the 3 pm service. Produce/switch for 3 pm. managed to catch a break during the sermon, den did prac 4 spdlite.. Power!!! somemore tried man-pack today. Haha its harder den it seems, i thot my cam is quite stable liao but this new style makes me feel noob again!! ahh i miss that feeling!! But yea its fun... Also the attendance abit strange... how to i put it........
Then went for dinner to celebrate my sis-in-law bday lol. Ya first time doing that.. haha..

Ok enuff fillers time to blog about wad i wanted to blog about... which is... i kinda forgotten.
.... recalling ..................................................
Ya i miss the past, i used to miss the past becuz it was sad, now i miss it becuz it was so blessed (?!). Guess its me not letting go again, always zzz. Never learn one u, i find it hard to accept that thats it u noe. Nah in general that is. I guess its never about me, its always You :) Yup this is enuff for me...

[Peace that surpasses all understanding]