No its monday already, but my post always lagging. Slack too much, wasting time all day long.
Ohh well sundays rock, haha i somehow managed to get myself to cell despite 1 hr + of sleep (And still awake at 2+ am now). Turns out they havent really start. lol. But thats becuz got international members alr. live conferencing ftw. Have to rush off to church 4 spd. Turns out i got the numbers wrong :( Cant go according to plan lol. But i have rox members so they saved the day again =)
Went for lunch after spd which is well ... lol. Then got tech meeting to discuss stuff. Turns out i got "volunteered" to "ML" status. Which basically means im the POC for tech for spd. Yup all tech leaders have always been 'ranked' evenly, which i have always thought is super cool. Anyway changes, changes, changes. We will see ... Looks like some people can finally retire ya ? yup yup
Got a free lift to tamp and a free card and a free dinner at sakae after that. Yea nice =)
Turns our i still haven't been doing work. But i felt the motivation returning. There is hope. But then i gotta slp. Sleep is important you noe ........
May i find strength in all that i do, may i live to glorify You ...
[ The only constant in life ... ]
Monday, January 25, 2010
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
rant
This is daniel's random rant. Just stuff i wanna put down ... so excuse me.
Im ... for the lack of better word, really tired. School started last week, n i'm still not in the mood to do anything yet. ZZzz.
Sorry if im weak. Sorry if im not superman. Sorry if i didnt help. Sorry if i wasn't there. Sorry i didnt go as far as i wish i could. Sorry if i had misjudged u. Sorry if i had assumed things about u. Sorry if i'm not caring enough, not patient enough. Sorry if im too preoccupied with my own things. Sorry if im not adequate enuff to help. Sorry if i appear to unfriendly/busy to respond. Sorry if i put my own interest above yours. Sorry if i thought all is fine. Im really sorry if im just being lazy. Sorry for me just being ... me.
Seriously i can't. This is becoming impossible. So tired, but any form of break is juz not possible. I can't break out of myself. I can't just reprogram myself. Im not a robot. This will take longer than it looks, far far longer .....
(ok the above post is not directed at any person in particular person. Just random people)
Now i take all the blame for inactivity. Sian, i just wanna hide at home can?
Really really really sick and very tired of all these.
Now i cant even afford to be sian. Still must maintain a certain lv of un-siannes. Such is the state of my life. What has changed ? nothing.
I do not understand, neither do i have the power to do much. So exactly wad m i here for? mark attendance ?
All the 'i's must go away, yet i cannot do it. I admit my own weakness, for i am weak.
I only ask that You forgive me, that Your will be done.
So now what? I do not know ...
[Wishing it will all go away, yet at the same time being thankful that its there. How confused can i get zzzzz]
Im ... for the lack of better word, really tired. School started last week, n i'm still not in the mood to do anything yet. ZZzz.
Sorry if im weak. Sorry if im not superman. Sorry if i didnt help. Sorry if i wasn't there. Sorry i didnt go as far as i wish i could. Sorry if i had misjudged u. Sorry if i had assumed things about u. Sorry if i'm not caring enough, not patient enough. Sorry if im too preoccupied with my own things. Sorry if im not adequate enuff to help. Sorry if i appear to unfriendly/busy to respond. Sorry if i put my own interest above yours. Sorry if i thought all is fine. Im really sorry if im just being lazy. Sorry for me just being ... me.
Seriously i can't. This is becoming impossible. So tired, but any form of break is juz not possible. I can't break out of myself. I can't just reprogram myself. Im not a robot. This will take longer than it looks, far far longer .....
(ok the above post is not directed at any person in particular person. Just random people)
Now i take all the blame for inactivity. Sian, i just wanna hide at home can?
Really really really sick and very tired of all these.
Now i cant even afford to be sian. Still must maintain a certain lv of un-siannes. Such is the state of my life. What has changed ? nothing.
I do not understand, neither do i have the power to do much. So exactly wad m i here for? mark attendance ?
All the 'i's must go away, yet i cannot do it. I admit my own weakness, for i am weak.
I only ask that You forgive me, that Your will be done.
So now what? I do not know ...
[Wishing it will all go away, yet at the same time being thankful that its there. How confused can i get zzzzz]
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
2009
yes i noe its already 5 days into the new year, and my title is wrong. But ohh well, my mind is still lagging ....
Anyway this is the long overdue post of 2009.
Ok i will start by giving thanks. Thank God for good results! haha i got A-, A-, B+, B+, B- and C-. looks rather imba if i put it down like this, makes me feel good too lol. But the bottomline is, i broke the 4 year barrier of a stuck gpa !!! Yup all glory to Him, i noe i did nothing actually, meaning, because i slack more this sem. Yes thats how i work lol.
Other than that im glad for this dec too. So many events and all the aussie people back, yup rox :)
Since this post is 2009 i shall go into that. err actually i shared on cell that my 2009 was well, nothing much ... ya nothing much it is. I lived as daniel, eat as daniel, and talked as daniel. Thats about it. I dunnoe, trying to reflect into the past year is like trying to search into a void, there is simply nothing there. i can't seem to recall anything other than one reason, can't hack into my own firewall zzzz.
Maybe there r victories, there r many events i think but ... nope nothing.
I survived 2009. Congratulations. Now unto 2010. Good luck daniel. you will need it.
Ok fine i will set some goals for 2010. Basically,
1. Studies
2. Ministry
Life gets so simple when u can reduce it down. That is all. Goodbye.
[ ............................. ]
Anyway this is the long overdue post of 2009.
Ok i will start by giving thanks. Thank God for good results! haha i got A-, A-, B+, B+, B- and C-. looks rather imba if i put it down like this, makes me feel good too lol. But the bottomline is, i broke the 4 year barrier of a stuck gpa !!! Yup all glory to Him, i noe i did nothing actually, meaning, because i slack more this sem. Yes thats how i work lol.
Other than that im glad for this dec too. So many events and all the aussie people back, yup rox :)
Since this post is 2009 i shall go into that. err actually i shared on cell that my 2009 was well, nothing much ... ya nothing much it is. I lived as daniel, eat as daniel, and talked as daniel. Thats about it. I dunnoe, trying to reflect into the past year is like trying to search into a void, there is simply nothing there. i can't seem to recall anything other than one reason, can't hack into my own firewall zzzz.
Maybe there r victories, there r many events i think but ... nope nothing.
I survived 2009. Congratulations. Now unto 2010. Good luck daniel. you will need it.
Ok fine i will set some goals for 2010. Basically,
1. Studies
2. Ministry
Life gets so simple when u can reduce it down. That is all. Goodbye.
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