rant

This is daniel's random rant. Just stuff i wanna put down ... so excuse me.

Im ... for the lack of better word, really tired. School started last week, n i'm still not in the mood to do anything yet. ZZzz.

Sorry if im weak. Sorry if im not superman. Sorry if i didnt help. Sorry if i wasn't there. Sorry i didnt go as far as i wish i could. Sorry if i had misjudged u. Sorry if i had assumed things about u. Sorry if i'm not caring enough, not patient enough. Sorry if im too preoccupied with my own things. Sorry if im not adequate enuff to help. Sorry if i appear to unfriendly/busy to respond. Sorry if i put my own interest above yours. Sorry if i thought all is fine. Im really sorry if im just being lazy. Sorry for me just being ... me.

Seriously i can't. This is becoming impossible. So tired, but any form of break is juz not possible. I can't break out of myself. I can't just reprogram myself. Im not a robot. This will take longer than it looks, far far longer .....

(ok the above post is not directed at any person in particular person. Just random people)

Now i take all the blame for inactivity. Sian, i just wanna hide at home can?

Really really really sick and very tired of all these.

Now i cant even afford to be sian. Still must maintain a certain lv of un-siannes. Such is the state of my life. What has changed ? nothing.

I do not understand, neither do i have the power to do much. So exactly wad m i here for? mark attendance ?

All the 'i's must go away, yet i cannot do it. I admit my own weakness, for i am weak.

I only ask that You forgive me, that Your will be done.

So now what? I do not know ...

[Wishing it will all go away, yet at the same time being thankful that its there. How confused can i get zzzzz]