Fear

Ahh here comes part 3. lol. But its 6 am alr. wasted too much time... brain not functioning fully...

ohh well lets c...

Yup. I have come to realize that e one emotion that i have hid the most n yet am most prone all my life is... fear. Haa its a strange realization, becuz u get really good at hiding it that u dun even realize it anymore, until u think further that is.

I have been fearful all my life. Afraid of not doing well, afraid of falling short, afraid of people criticizing me, afraid of trying new things, afraid of change, afraid of the unknown, afraid of meeting new people, afraid of uncomfortable situations etc. etc.

Its amazing ain't it? n i refuse to admit it, for i will not show my weakness. never.

I guess its the environment i have bought up with that made me liddat, train from young to be cautious, to always go on the safe side, avoid mistakes blah blah. It actually took quite awhile that the underlying emotion under all these is... fear. I'm. just. afraid. period.

Good news? i found that out. Now there is hope.
Bad news? Took me abit long u say, but its not going to bother me.

That is all, i shall move in faith n hope from now, try at least =)

But then again, the shell is so comfortable n so nice to hide. y shld i come out anyway? zzz

[For perfect love drives out fear.]