Fail

I got alot to blog really... but been too busy of late to sit down n type. This is the first of 3 "Single word" post. The other 2 will be Sanctify n Fear. Hope i rmb to put them down sometime in the future.

Fail. A simple word. I'm sure u first encounter it when u r really young. U noe, when things didnt go the way u wanted, n then there is this huge sucky feeling abt urself, and that... is fail.

Something we have all grown too familiar with perhaps. Something we have learnt to lived with.

I think i have failed. I didnt manage to accomplish at hand wad i have set out to do. In fact, most of the time, what i did not set out to do, i seem to accomplish them with relative ease. While those things i set out to do with 100% effort often bring little to no results. I guess this explains my heck care attitude to life and things in general, im actually trying to "succeed", just that its very diff from the norm. Guess i have no choice but to adapt to this reverse law in my life. LOL

I couldn't, i hope i could, but i couldn't. I tried my best to do wad little i could, but it is of no use. Some1 else pls do it for me, i couldn't, i had done wad i could, n that is all i can do :( I noe it has to be some1 else, it has to be, i have limited powers. Im sorry if i couldn't, Im sorry if im unable to help. Im really sorry, i didnt mean to. All i can tell u is this, i have done what i could. N i hope i didn't make things worse. zzzzzzzzzzzz. Sorry once again if i did. I do not know really, there is really only so much =( Hope some1 else can help...

But this does not mean i will stop, i dun give up. 100% effort for 1% improvement is worth it to me. I will keep trying, keep going, remain there, do whatever is possible in my power, n keep on hoping 4 the best. Keep on hoping... till then, i only got these words to say "I'm sorry for failing, i'm really really sorry."

[Too much, or too little?]