JBD

or Just Blame Daniel!! haha i knew one day i will blog about this. I just know....

Hahaha ya JBD stands for Just Blame Daniel, which means u can just blame me 4 anything... ya i mean anything. I'm fine with it. I knew u meant it as a joke, n i find it pretty funny too... but its ok, it has always been like this, nt ur fault.

Ya i have been living in blame all my life. Most of the time, i instinctively just take the blame for everything. Even tho its not my fault, i still want to take the blame. friends going into gaming, friends breaking up, friends not doing well in sch, somehow i feel responsible, either becuz i did something, or i didn't do anything. If it seems that i wasn't responsible in any way, then i blame myself for not doing anything abt it. If it looks like im responsible, then ok im to blame for i could have done better. This is y i cannot handle setbacks in life, most people r hit hard. But i will just take all the blame for all involved n just try to carry it all [So its me + every1 else, imagine how much that is :( ]. I will just attempt to blame myself for everything in my life. A direct reverse of some people i think, but ohh well :( People's problems r my fault, my problems r my fault, how can i ever be free??? zzzzzz

Which is y guilt trap always works on me :( probably my greatest weakness. Make me feel guilty, n u r 90% in control of me. Its that bad. haiz :(

Its all my fault, its all my fault.... how much longer can i live liddat zzzzzzz

[I'm sorry, my bad :( ]

on a side note, tech gathering rox!!! I hope we r moving on, i have the faith we r!! :)