Desire...

ok hello...
ohh i went to study at esplanade library on saturday wif jon and esther haha, quite rare that i actually studied at a library lah.. i nv ever do that b4 my uni days one lol. Anyway, cant even do 1 qn la, m i dead or wad.. zzz. And i felt like i noe most of my stuff, tink must try exams qns. I need to regain my confidence lah. And den went to eat sushi $1 only with alot of wasabi... ouch....

And then it was sunday!!! hehe sunday is sunday! ok stop crapping... ya lor went for 11 am with cell ya. Yup i actually tink i have some of those pre-conceived notions on revelations that pastor shared, when i read the book much younger and i nv really read it with a proper perspective, ahh ok good that i cleared the air on some stuff... And on revelation, i used to wonder y God would be so "evil" and rain down so much judgement on mankind, but as i grew older i actually realised that He is very loving to save us, to be so patient with us despite our ohh-so-obvious-die-die-refuse-to-admit-it-fallen nature, that all we really need in life is actually Him, not all those other things... That the book actually tells of how He is so patient with man and still wanting to save despite judgement, instead of it being a sadist book on "ohh im gonna judge u all for denying me muahaha" kinda thing.
And ya i served for spdlite today, and the sermon is on desire which is the title of this post, means that i spend too much time typing fillers... Yup its on how we have strong desires, and He will grant us those desires if we ask. Yah i noe i heard this kind of thing alot alr. Got reminded of my desireless teenage years lol, on how i tried to lose all desires becuz i tink that any form of desire is self-centered/gain and therefore its all bad. (abit like buddhism thing but not that extreme ya) But i learnt that if we submit our desires unto Him, then he is gracious enuff to bless us... Went back slept and went for dinner with family.. Oo.. den met flan for "movie", which we nv watch, lol rare lah. Ended up walking ard and having supper at mac..

And since no one still reads this blog, i decided to share abit on my desires!! haha! altho they r seriously weird and kinda screwed.. but i decided to put them anyway, and if u wonder y, den u haven't been reading my blog properly. Ok i hope i dun offend any1 or anything like that.

I got this desire to prove that one can still achieve considerably good results without studying really hard blindly.. by being disciplined and studying smart and with His grace of cuz..... Becuz i noe i am where i am becuz of Him. I'm not giving an excuse for slacking...
I also have this desire to show that staying commited to church is possible despite life's storms and changes. That my priority will always be to honour Him, that even if one's life gets harder, with more things to crowd our life, that i will look to Him always. That is y i resolve never to give up on church juz to study more/project meeting/wadeva. Unless on certain cases lah.
I also desire to earn my fortune (who doesn't / this is certainly something new lol) not by the normal way of thinking of $$$ 24/7 but by trusting in Him and being "smart" of cuz :P That i might use my wealth to bless others. And own some luxurious stuff juz becuz i can not becuz i want them really badly in the first place hahaha.
And of cuz i desire to be an engineer, lol if not y am i studying in ntu. And to learn not for exams but becuz i really have a passion for it. yup :)
I desire to bless others with wadeva little i have, my cell, my friends, tech, family... Ya that somehow i will make that teeny weeny little bit of difference in their life, no matter how tiny it is :D
And of cuz, i desire to live a life that glorifies Him most importantly of all.

wow long post...

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