been awhile

ya its been a month... i think. lol
So how has it been? nothing much lor. HAHAHA

yea i always say that. I wonder y... i just think that my life is not worth sharing, people shouldn't waste their time listening to me relate my boring life. Its not worth their time at all, nope its not :O

lol my self-worth is sky low, or ground low, nah it shouldn't be surprising at all..

Thats abt it, im really confused, super lost........ no idea at alll....... nil.

Everything everywhere, everyone anywhere.

Shld just start mugging for my exams now. I guess its time..... lol but i got no motivation, no strength, no drive, no mood, just sian. dun want, just dun feel like lor. Its easy to say stuff like its my last year in uni better study hard 4 ur future etc. etc., but let's face it. I dun give a dam abt that all. That won't give me much motivation, not alot, will get get me studying 1-2 days b4 the exams but thats it. I will burn out and its all over. I hope to find it back, i dun have much choice really, but haizzzzz.... can i get over sch????

Of cuz school is not the actual issue, it nv is. lol if it is, then i wouldn't have made to local uni in the first place. The actual issue is everything else, hahaha n that is rarely settled lolx.

Nv did anything in the past 5 years, they were a complete disaster. Gone nowhere, zzzzzzz i'm so fail, again :(

you do noe if u gamble everything off the line liddat, u may just lose it all in the end??? yup i noe, but i like to gamble rmb? haaa lose everything then lose everything lor, let's c how much i can lose. come lah, i not scared leh. bring it on chumps!

So can i like go somewhere now? this desert is killing me, there is no light at all. Im so lost, help i dunno dunno dunno. You want to teach me patience, but time is running out. LOL im fail ran out of patience again. gg sentenced to 2 more years of wandering in the desert. zzzzzz

It sux to wander in the desert. They wandered in the desert for 40 years, we read it as a passage, but im very sure now its really sh*tty to go thru that. Everyday u wake up, u c manna and quail, and thats it. No idea where u r heading, no idea wad to do. Just know that He provided for u, and thats it. Yea He is our provider, he is greater than all, but still u remain lost. I dun wanna be Moses man, stuck in the desert for 40 yrs with a million whiny people, how does he do it, i would have gone crazy lol :(

I wanna kick out of this desert, but thats not the way to go abt doing it. Running around faster in circles just means u get a bigger headache... doesn't do anything. still lost..

How do they do it anyway???? Hmmm looks like i have continue wandering.... ohh well make do with wad little manna n quail He has given me, then just chiong finish my exams!! ohh well no long term thingy nthn to do just clear exams lor :X

sad... reduced to such a state. pathetic :(

hmm So if i start now, is it already too late? Well i won't know, n i can just try. But its so tiring, how am i supposed to go on anyway. Where to find the strength?? How can i keep carrying on when there is nothing? It may be too heavy, im afraid. I dunno if i can move anot. This is too taxing, far more taxing than i thought. So tiring, so tiring, go on daniel, no1 is watching, it can.. be done.

[I will set You as a seal upon my heart, as a seal upon my arm]