Insecurities...

ahhaa... i really should learn to sleep early on monday "mornings" lol...
cfm cannot wake up tmr one zzzzz..
anyway, i managed to finish my physics assignment!!! at 2.45 i tink.. took so long zzz, one qn stuck close to one hour...... den i decided to google the entire question, AND IT WORKED!!! i got my answer!!!! haha lol internetzzz FTW!

nah... ya lazy to type the usual sunday post... but i must say, munchkin quest is fun!! haha tying ur hand and farming gold rox...... at least i died a rich man there :P

Yea so the topic u c on top is the topic for cell today... lol. We all have insecurities, hmmm i honestly feel that my insecurities are not so private, hahaha u want to know den i tell u lor, like wadeva..

Yup had to rank 3 insecurities out of a list.. and i ranked...

1. Amptitude : (ur lv and natural stats, skills, skill level, growth rate, xp rate)

2. Achievements (ranking, boss kills, medals, feats, pvp competitions)

3. Financial Status (Gold , meso, munny, wadeva u name it. Can include equipment and items too)

Ok out of my game mode.... lol ya so liddat lor. Haha sad all these insecurities start popping out recently zzzzzzzz. Whatever lah, life is filled with too many things, where got energy to feel insecure, go play game is much better :P or juz spend a day in church :) Lol notice i nv put relationship and wad companionship down at all, those things are really rank the last few lol, dunnoe dun care yea. This list makes me look selfish, like all i feel insecure about is me, me and more me. LOL.

Guess all these insecurities came from a deep desire to excel when im much much younger, but throughout the years i have managed to severely suppress it by gaming and slacking like mad, lol but now uni is reviving these lost feelings, zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz sianzz. Anyway, there are quite minor lah. With xtra principles, like dunnoe, dun care, anything , wadeva, just "stoned" it, how to feel insecure when u are so unattached to yourself.... Ya as life goes on one learns helplessness, one learns to let go, one learns to give up, to stop hitting the wall, one learns life goes on with or without u, one noes that it all adds up eventually, nothing is worth to feel insecure at all, nothing at all. Yup i dun really feel insecure much at all (ok fine that is one of my pursuits in life lol), because i always have a Hope that never changes, never =)

But i still need to study lah. seriously, im gonna start liao, warm up month over. but the work is gonna increase. sad.